I think for me it’s actually not fearlessness it’s like, having fear and doing it anyway. Being scared is courage, you know? I used to fixate on fearlessness, though. I use to be so obsessed with this idea that some people are fearless and that’s how they do it. The difference between the ones who did it and the ones who didn’t do it, whatever “it” is, is just that those people don’t have fear–and I’m plagued with fear. That’s actually what was going on in my head for a long time and that’s why I didn’t pursue music.
It’s like so much more about courage. When I found out that people on the other side are scared and that they’re doing it anyway–that was the moment for me.
Colophon: a statement at the end of a book containing the scribe or owner’s name, date of completion, or bitching about how hard it is to write a book in the dark ages
Oh, my hand
The parchment is very hairy
Thank God it will soon be dark
St. Patrick of Armagh, deliver me from writing
Now I’ve written the whole thing; for Christ’s sake give me a drink
Oh d fuckin abbot
Massive hangover
Whoever translated these Gospels did a very poor job
Cursed be the pesty cat that urinated over this book during the night
If someone else would like such a handsome book, come and look me up in Paris, across from the Notre Dame cathedral
I shall remember, O Christ, that I am writing of Thee, because I am wrecked today
Do not reproach me concerning the letters, the ink is bad and the parchment scanty and the day is dark
11 golden letters, 8 shilling each; 700 letters with double shafts, 7 shilling for each hundred; and 35 quires of text, each 16 leaves, at 3 shilling each. For such an amount I won’t write again
Here ends the second part of the title work of Brother Thomas Aquinas of the Dominican Order; very long, very verbose; and very tedious for the scribe; thank God, thank God, and again thank God
If anyone take away this book, let him die the death, let him be fried in a pan; let the falling sickness and fever seize him; let him be broken on the wheel, and hanged. Amen
what does oh d fuckin abbot even MEAN
an abbot is the head of a monastery so it just means “fuck my boss” basically, an abbreviation of “O damned fuckin Abbot”. this is what it looks like:
straight people watching brokeback mountain and going “heehee gay cowboys! so funny!” is literally evil. it’s a movie about how gay men are terrified to be together and a lot of them end up in unhappy and unfulfilling het marriages. a lot of gay men back in the day were cowboys with the express purpose of living their fucking lives. gay cowboys existed everywhere because being out there in the middle of fuck knows where surrounded my other men (often times their partners) and farm animals was better than being publicly out and murdered, especially if you were a man of color, since they pioneered cowboy culture.
